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Today was undeniably great. When he sent me home. I was really nervous, but to me it all went well. Not sure about what he thinks though. An I realised I like him. Not in the I love you kind of way, but enough for a relationship. But sigh, I’m so sad though that he might not feel the same way as me anymore. Why did my feelings kick in so late? Why do I take so long to fall for someone?...

Apr 2nd

Well, I guess I’m back already. I think you already know what I’m gonna rant on. Everything seems to focus on him, for that matter. I really have no idea if he still feels the sane way for me. Call me desperate or whatever, but I really want to experience the feeling or being loved. Really really. I don’t want to lose him. He’s been the sweetest so far, and I know...

Mar 28th

I know that I’ve been saying that I’m losing you for the previous few posts, but looks like this time it’s really true. What you said really made me sad though. The fact that we aren’t fated anymore, the fact that you’re trying to move on an the fact that you didn’t even text me today. I was so sad though, so sad that I couldn’t even concentrate on my...

Mar 22nd

Sigh. Now I know what you’re really like. But it really makes me wonder, how can you even fall for someone so easily? It’s like in a week. I’m really astonished by that fact, and it’s kind of a turn off too, knowin that you actually liked so many girls before. Ahh. Wonder what this says about you though. I really wonder if you’re even sure about your feelings all...

Mar 19th

havent been coming here recently, cause i found another medium. But it prevents me from saying all that i want to say. sigh, guess i’ve lost you? really, now. why do i always make all the wrong decisions? selfishness on my part maybe. but i really wish there was someone there for me all the time. sigh. guess your feelings faded, somehow? ): wont deny that im damn sad though. really...

Mar 17th

Alone. Ahh the old is back. ): I guess it’s over for us? Well, what was I expecting anyway? Best friend status. Don’t make me laugh. I’m sad though, that there all indeed so many things you just won’t be able to hold on to, no matter how hard you try. Realised I can only really click with people who share similar ideals and thinking to me. I can hang out and talk with...

Mar 5th

Hmm, guess it’s sort of over? Thought through this yesterday night through a haze of migraines and exhaustion. It is almost imposssiblr for me to reciprocate unless I’m desperate or something. And I shall not be desperate, cause this year is a really crucial one, and I don’t want to regret. Makes me doubt the depth of your feelings though, it’s so darn superficial, I...

Mar 5th

Sigh. I’m so sad right now. It’s like everything’s been going wrong, everything. Feels like what we had from the start was never apparent, feels like nothing even happened. Sigh. I wished I’d stayed behind, karma, is that what this is? Now it’s so weird to talk to you, and I don’t know what exactly you’re feeling. Are you angry at me, or just sad that,...

Mar 4th

Well, just received the news about the team yesterday. Much as I expected it, I can’t say I ain’t disappointed. I mean, with my attendance abd everything, what was I really expecting? Sigh, now I don’t even know if I’m still in the damn cca or not. My future is really kind of bleak. I must say I’m really jealous of her though, in this arena. Should I have worked...

Mar 1st

Omg this is so ironic. I really feel like laughing la-.- gosh. I didn’t dare to let the person know that I know though, sigh. No choice but to act really blur and dense, when actually I’m a much more perceptive person. Wonder if that person will ever know the truth in the end? I’m kind of afraid he’ll lose the drive though, and give up altogether. Ohwell, I guess this is...

Feb 28th

Gosh. I’m really so tired ): have econs tmr and I can’t complete my work properly ): kind of disappointed in myself, was banking on the fact that I would be much more productive today, but it didn’t materialize. Went out to study, much to the objections of my mum. It hurts me to use such vulgarities on her though, I know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of such...

Feb 27th

And it is precisely at this point of the time when I feel the most alone. Wanted to prevent myself from using the computer, yet I had this most urgent need to pour everything out. Everyone else has their own committments, yet I just feel alone. I could go though, I would be able to make it. But I chose not to. Gosh I even lied to him sigh.=/ I wanted to have an outing before that, but seeing as...

Feb 26th

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Feb 24th

Oh gosh. Have i mentioned how tired I am? I’m totally mentally and physically tired and brain-dead. Really regretted signing up for the chingay cip, drained out so many saturdays and lots of my time. Could have spent it on much more productive work, although I admit it has been fun and I made many friends over there (: I’m so tired though, so tired that I could fall asleep anytime,...

Feb 19th

I’m glad though. I really hope what i strongly suspect is true, and I’m that person. What can I say, but it really feels great to be loved (: I wonder what that person sees in me though, when I look into the mirror and review my pictures, I don’t see someone who is capable of being liked based on looks alone. Ohwell. Approximately two more years, and hopefully my insecurities...

Feb 19th

11:11. Ahh, what a well-known symbolic notion of time. I myself do believe in it, at least I tell myself too. Does it really work? There’s no scientific proof or anything, but yet everytime i see 11:11 I’ll think that someone misses me, and I’ll make a wish. So far, my wishes have come true! But it could be not even linked to that time at all. Faith. What an amazing driving...

Feb 17th

Hmm. So it happened to her I guess. Sad how people only realise what’s gone after it really leaves you. I wanted to warn her, to take notice of how much he loves her, but I just didn’t know how to. What if she gets offended? I feel guilty though, I could have adviced her, yet she might think I’m not on her side. Am I a bad friend? It’s sad though, I can feel us drifting...

Feb 15th