Omg this is so ironic. I really feel like laughing la-.- gosh. I didn’t dare to let the person know that I know though, sigh. No choice but to act really blur and dense, when actually I’m a much more perceptive person. Wonder if that person will ever know the truth in the end?

I’m kind of afraid he’ll lose the drive though, and give up altogether. Ohwell, I guess this is a test of faith and fate. Life is so cruel sometimes, ain’t it?

If that person still continues to feel the same way even after my a levels, yeah I’ll definitely tell him what he wants to hear. But if he doesn’t, well means what he felt was probably fleeting and I didn’t matter much anyway.

Makes me sad though. On another note, I really really hope that I won’t feel anything. Perhaps now is the time to block out my heart. It’ll be bad, really bad if that ever happens.

Sigh. I wish things could have turned out a different way. But what is life without it’s difficulties abd challenges?

Barriers are really there to see how much we want something.

I’m kind of happy though, to be loved and everything (: finally, something concrete. Thank you god, even if it had to be this way.