Sigh. Now I know what you’re really like. But it really makes me wonder, how can you even fall for someone so easily? It’s like in a week. I’m really astonished by that fact, and it’s kind of a turn off too, knowin that you actually liked so many girls before.

Ahh. Wonder what this says about you though. I really wonder if you’re even sure about your feelings all along. If what you said is true, how can you even dream of someone else? I’m really confused by you, and that’s what putting me off in the first place, and preventing me from accepting you.

If only you didn’t have the past, if only I was the first. You would have definitely be on my list. But now… Nah. Definitely not.

Sigh. Guess I’m alone once more? I miss m though. He was the only guy who was really frank and honest with me. Honest about his emotions too. Made me feel like I couldt tell him anything and he wouldn’t judge me. Wish he could text me once more.

Guess I’ll drop you out of my mind then? Shouldn’t be wanting to hold on to you
just so I could feel wanted. It’s so much of selfishness on my part. I’m sorry. You can go. Guess you’re not the one for me. Arghhhh dear god, could I have someone there for me please? I really feel so alone and empty at times. Really wish that there could be someone else. Like b. I appreciate k, I really do. But sigh, I don’t mind getting into a r/s now. Really want the experience and the feeling of being loved. Could you help me arrange something please god? Let someone new come into my life. Someone I don’t mind. I really need that person, really. Thank you so
much god, amen.

And I really really hope indont dream of you tonight. Kind of
regretted what I said. Sigh.

Help me please god? I’m willing to try to open up my heart. Let him satisfy most of my criteria. Cute to me, very sweet and nice, no gf before and not close to girls, the kind that I can tell anything too.

Thanks god. I love you. Amen.