I know that I’ve been saying that I’m losing you for the previous few posts, but looks like this time it’s really true.

What you said really made me sad though. The fact that we aren’t fated anymore, the fact that you’re trying to move on an the fact that you didn’t even text me today. I was so sad though, so sad that I couldn’t even concentrate on my work at all. Sigh.

I really wish things didn’t have to turn out this way. Isit too late to force myself to accept you? I wouldn’t mind being with you la I guess. You’re a really nice person, almost perfect to me. And that fact that I don’t love you means that I wouldn’t get hurt if anything happens. I just feel so guilty though. Did I mAke the wrong move?

Sigh. Maybe I should try. All that I want now is for you to reply my text. For you to know that I’ve finally realised.and for me to tell you honestly how I feel about all these. Who knows, I might be able to love you after all.

Dear god, I really hope that we can be given another chance. Please god. I’ll do anything for it. Let us go back to a few days ago, where he still had hope for me. I want to try this out god, I really do. Please god, alright? Please, I’m begging you, give me a chance. I think I made the wrong move, and I really don’t want things to turn out this way. Really. I do not want to lose him. Seriously. Please help me god, I might be able to accept him after all. I really need someone there for me. Help me god, alright? Please. Let today be a better day for us and let everything be alright. Please god. Thank you god. Amen.

Thanks for always being there for me. I’m really grateful for everything you’ve help me with. Please help me this time, alright god? Thank you so much. I love you.